alfonzo...he's dead.  he died saturday, may 21, 2005.  i admit i didn't love him and didn't pay him that much attention over time, but i still fed him every day.  yea, he was my colorful, but mainly red, beta fish.  my very first pet, as well.  he ate a piece of gravel that was way too big for him to handle.  it was not a pieceful death, with that sharp pebble that really only belonged in the cage as decoration for the bottom of the container.  i picked out all the bigger pebbles in case i got another fish, but it doesn't seem like i will any time soon.  i just don't need one, i guess.  i just made a spontaneous decision to buy a beta fish when amy and janet said they were gonna go to walmart (in dartmouth) to buy fish, and they asked me if i was gonna too.  i said i never had a pet before, and so i thought, yes, that sounds like an interesting idea.  my first year of a LOT of things, that's for sure.  anyway, so i got that fish during the first semester of school, and i can't member around when..but i think it was close to a couple of weeks after i started goin out with my ex...i realize that i never said too much bout school.  there's so much that everyone's missing, but it's way too much to type.  you know that i like details; i like to hear them, i like to give them.
i played tennis with my oldest sister on thursday and friday.  not too bad on thursday, but i was a little sore on friday, so i didn't do too well.  but it was still fun.  i felt good bout the exercise.  i wish that my school still had those very many tennis courts that i saw when i went to visit.  but you know what took the place of those gorgeous, new-looking tennis courts?? apartments! yes, nice new apartments, which i will most likely end up living in during my junior or senior year(s).  i would have liked to exercise playing tennis, as opposed to staring at myself in the mirror in the gym.  i went to the gym myself two or three times during the first semester of school, near the middle or end of it, i think, cause i stopped goin when it got too cold.   i purposely didn't let people know that i was goin to the gym cause i wanted to be there myself..it just made motivated me to stay there longer.  cause when i told my friends that i would be there for three hours or something, they thought that was a long time.  so i guess it just made me feel better bout myself when i just made myself go alone for a few hours.  i never did go back to the gym when it got warmer in the second semester.  i didn't feel motivated to go.  i asked janet to go jogging with me when it got warmer, but i guess when we had the chance, i would never think to do it.  but maybe we'll member next year.  oh man, now i'm thinking how busy i'll be with school work.  i'm nervous.  anyhowever, i need to go to sleep now cause i gotta leave the house by 730 AM to go to my cousin sabrina's graduation at UMass Amherst, and some of you know that i take a long time to get ready.  i remember what it's like to be at home, alright.  i just wrote in my final english paper that i like the freedom of bein home, cause nobody can keep telling me to go to sleep...well, my mom just told me two times in less than three minutes to go to sleep...i know she means well, but it's not like telling me again will make me go any faster.  it just gets on my nerve that i can't decide.  i'm the one who has to pay for it in the end if i don't get enough sleep, y'know?  i don't mean to complain.  shut up (*talking to myself).
ooh ooh! i wanna say before i go that i went to the mall with my sisters on saturday, and we didn't fight at all!  it was coolio!  i got a pair of jeans, a skirt, a cami, lotion and underwear..yes, that's right, i just told you that i got underwear.  hah, no need to be ashamed of every-day things (well, for most of us, underwear is an every day thing).  alrighty.  i'm all done now. good night or good day to you!