i'm listening to oldie rock n' roll love songs right now. i was just looking through the cd's, trying to find out who sings "sittin on the dock of the bay," cause it's been bugging me for a week now. the name came to mind when i was at school, but it didn't come to me at home, so i asked my dad and aunt..then we ended up trying to figure out the name of another song (i got it after a while), and then we were thinkin of the person who sang it. i said, "hold on; give me another hour [to remember it]", and i randomly blurted the singer's name out when i got it.."guess i didn't need an hour". yup, felt nice to be thinkin of these older songs. i was at a Friday's with my sisters, dad, aunt and cousin, and my aunt joked a lot with the waiter. she also tried to ask him who sang songs and the names of songs, which he didn't know, so he said he would ask someone else, who was tOtally off..but it was all entertaining.
i was at the North Quincy T station yesterday, and i happened to run into Mr. Werthman from North. it was such a surprise. we talked a lot of the way into Boston, until i got to my stop at Park Street. everything seems to be goin alright. i asked him about his fiancee, and he told me that she doesn't have a restaurant anymore; she has to work for someone else now. that's too bad. i keep wanting to ask when they're gonna get married, but i feel it's rude. we brought up the pizza party that betty and i missed for some reason..i think it was cause i couldn't reach betty that day. i didn't know the time either, so i wasn't just gonna guess.
right now, i feel really down. not depressed, but low. i'm not sure i'm gonna wanna share my thoughts on that right now. i know i shouldn't need someone else to make me happy, but i feel it would help, y'know? it helped last year, but it killed me when it was over. i didn't know what to do. i've never been so attached and then left hanging without any real warning. it's not even the same with my situation in junior/senior year. it's just not. when i look back at that, i think..it was just a school girl crush that shoulda been dealt with differently. i almost feel like i was a rebound, but i can't be sure. i'm not regretting anything..i'm actually grateful for the--although short-lived--optimism. freshman year threw everything at me at once. i had a lot of first times, making me feel like i experienced even more in one year than all four years of high school. it was just too unreal. if i could do it over..yea, in a heartbeat. if i had the choice, i'd do some things differently--that's a given. but, even if i had to do it all the same way it was done the first time, i would take the opportunity, just to re-live the happy times...*reminiscing.
yay, just got a call from cammie! gonna go out to eat with her, and talk. i haven't had much of an appetite lately, but i'll get something just so we can catch up on things. alrighty, i'm outta here!
yay, just got a call from cammie! gonna go out to eat with her, and talk. i haven't had much of an appetite lately, but i'll get something just so we can catch up on things. alrighty, i'm outta here!